Today was Rowan's 4 month well baby. He was 15 lbs 11 oz, 26 inches & 16 & 3/4 for his head. The ped was a little surprised to see those two little teeth in there but then again made the point that every baby is different. I think that is one thing that has been hard this time around is trying not to compare Rowan to Chandler at this age or even to other babies his age. He also got all of the lovely shots but hasn't seemed to irritable so far today.
He really has grown a lot in the last 4 months.
After his appointment, we went over to see Grandma Nielson (my dad's mom) She has been living in an assisted living center for about a year and a half. She has taken a turn for the worse these last few days and can't even get out of bed. I wasn't prepared to see her and lost all control when I walked into her room. Seeing her there so vulnerable and so close to death was hard to see. Grandma woke up for a few minutes and reached for my hand. I just sat there and held her hand and let her hold little Rowan's hand too. Grandma adores babies and I couldn't help but thing about life long and hard while watched Rowan clutching onto a couple of her fingers. It was eye opening to see someone who just came into the world a few months ago and someone who doesn't have much time left in this world. Part of me wants to see her go so she can be with my grandpa who passed in December 2005. She has sleep apnea episodes where she won't breathe for 30 seconds and just looks past you when she is awake. My mom was reading to me a pamphlet the hospice nurse had given her last night and grandma's body is clearly shutting down. I know I don't often get too serious with my posts but I am really very grateful for the knowledge we have in this life and know today was a testimony builder for me.
When I came home Marshall had dressed Chandler in this little red gingham cowboy shirt that was his as a little boy. I've seen pictures of Marshall in it when he was little - his grandma made it for him. I'm surprised at what good condition it is in after 22 years. I'll have to try to scan a pic of Marshall in when he has this little shirt on.